The BlinkyStJames Times

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Blinky st. james — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 23:47:48 GMT

So, the date to be finished with Handle with Care is in 10 days. I have a lot to read before then!

The discovery channel is really interesting. That's another thing I like about New York...Cash Cab. xD

I love Morning Glory. I can't get enough of this stuff. For some reason, this time I especially love all the note books and stuff. Haha. =D I also like pinkfoot, even though I can't read any of it. It's cute!

Hrm...I think that's it for now. :P

There used to be an article here

Blinky st. james — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:13:20 GMT

But there isn't

anymore

Not today

Blinky st. james — Sat, 13 Jun 2009 01:02:27 GMT

So, we looked at a couple of apartments that are owned by our previous landlord, and...no. The first one was so rediculously small it could fit in this small motel room...with motel room left over. The second one was large by comparison...but still very small. And the building...oh my gawd. It was three stories, with an elevator "that's going to be fixed!" and they had little balconies...that looked rotten. I wouldn't step out on one of those things. It was in an area of San Jose that's not wise to go outside at night in.

I don't have good feelings about either one, and I don't think this is what we're destined to "settle" for. We're not going to settle again, and live in misery like we did months ago, crammed in with a bunch of boxes we have no room to unpack, and no way to walk around without bumping into everything because there's just no room. We want to find a place where we can get our things out of storage - or at least out of the unit they're in, because we can't afford to pay that every month. We may be in the car until we find something, but guess what? It's better than renting from a guy who thinks that just because you're homeless, you're stupid. He thinks he's our only option; he doesn't know that.

So, the search continues. We'll know when we find something that's right for us, and what we saw today wasn't it.

Nastysauce

Blinky st. james — Fri, 12 Jun 2009 00:01:38 GMT

So. I had a doctor's appointment today for some zits that just won't heal. It started out with one and now I have more. I went for this a while ago, actually. So I got a prescription - pills and roll-on stuff. I can't swallow pills, but they didn't have the stuff in liquid so I asked if it was possible to crush the stuff up and put it in applesauce. Yep, that's possible.

But. The applesauce that was on sale was the natural stuff...I'm assuming the 'original' stuff has more flavor? Because OMIGAWD that...it...uggghhhh. It is the nasty. Why doesn't medication taste better than this? *shudders*

The roll on stuff is not that bad, I thought it would sting more (open sores and all) but it didn't so yay. But that applesauce...yeghh. And I have to keep taking and getting this stuff until it's gone.

SO GO AWAY EVIL THINGS!!!

My computer is an airhead

Blinky st. james — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 05:43:41 GMT

So. I am sitting there looking at stuff - almost done, too - and my mouse stops working. It surprised me, because the exact same second it stopped this little thing pops up. If you've got Vista, you know what I'm talking about...one of those 'this program stopped working' things. I can't remember exactly what it said, but the thingy* that makes it function had stopped working. And, you know what those windows are for...

...they ask you if you want to close the program. You have to mouse over to the window and click on the button.

How am I supposed to do that if I can't even use my mouse? -_-;;;

So I had to turn her off with the power button, and then when I turned her back on I got the 'It was shut down incorrectly' message and then after that she turned on like normal and yay here I am on Plaid Terry instead of my mom's computer. Shutting down is such a good thing. =P

*Look at how technical I am!

Blah blah update-y thing

Blinky st. james — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 07:16:04 GMT

I thought I'd post this picture because I thought it was funny; pretty much all of the magazines here for June feature either pink or green on the cover. Haha! Anyway, I thought it was weird. :P

Aaaanyway. I thought I'd post a little update of how we're doing, we're still looking for an apartment; we heard back from one we inquired about on Craigslist and the guy was a reverend with a sick wife who moved to Africa (because of his wife was sick, they could no longer live on the property) and he said if we drove past there would be a for sale sign outside but we should ignore it because he changed his mind about selling it. He said he had the keys and lease with him in Africa, and he cared less about rent than the property being kept up.

Yeeeeaaahhh so we just told him it was too far (it was in Gilroy anyway).

And it seems I've forgotten how to sleep in a bed, every time we are able to get a motel room I always wake up feeling off, why can't I sleep right?? ARGH it's annoying.*

It is amazing how with earphone on, sounds from outside can pull me out of the present and sound like the neighbor in apt. #1 sitting on their patio, and our gate being open. It's a little freaky. The last year living at that apartment must have traumatized me a bit haha.

Also - I'm enjoying Handle With Care so far, one night I kept telling myself I'd read one more chapter, but then I read like 6. :P

And also I changed my avatar because officially, birfday sillybrashuns last only a week after one's birfday, and it's been a week. :P The internet connection I am using now, someone got me an aircard but there is like NO downloading they stressed, so I picked a picture I already have on my computer; I finished it this morning. xD The full version is on me new Writing page. :D Yes, my new avatar...is a guy.

*I have Benign Paroxysmal Vertigo of Childhood which is like this kind of migraine thing only there's not really much headaches, just a whole lot of dizziness and nausea and vomitting. I've had it since I was 5. It can be set off by stress, spinning around, Mrs. Monthly, and "sleeping wrong" (which is if your head is not high enough or at the wrong angle).

I'm Violet

Blinky st. james — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 08:27:20 GMT

Well! Someone who read about us in an article in the paper offered to touch up our hair, so this morning we went and my mom got her roots done. The lady who did it didn't have pink to match my hair, but she had an awesome all-over dark purple color. So, gone are the streaks and here is a lot of Merlot. :D I like it! And in honor of it, I decided to part my hair on the side instead of the usual middle part. (I couldn't get a very good picture, but I'll post the best one I got. As you can tell, I don't have a chin.)

Also, my mom joined PNN. I know I've come to really love this site; whadya say we make her feel welcome? :D

Random thoughts

Blinky st. james — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 09:17:58 GMT

So. Randomly, I was thinking that a certain aforementioned blog of mine would have been much better on tumblr, because there's no commenting there. (You can install comments...but there is none at first.) Haha. Although when I started that blog the only blogging platform I had heard of was blogger. (I think I had googled 'free blogs' or something and blogger was the first hit, so I went with it without looking at anything else.) But anyway it might now have, because tumblr is better for pictures or links or anything other than long blah blah posts. It was just a random thought anyway! :P

Also, don't drink chocolate milk at your computer. It will get on your fingers and then on your mousepad and then it will freak out and then you will freak out. Because it will be going all over your screen even though you aren't toughing it and you will be all like OMG IT'S POSSESSED!! And it will be hard to turn it off and stuff, but you can clean it off with a damp Kleenex (or Scotties as the case may be) while it's off and then when you turn it back on it'll be peachy keen so yay. But yeah don't even try it.

Angelica is licking my knee. I'm wearing jeans. She may be a small dog but I assure you in a few minutes my whole right leg is going to be sopping wet. This dog has a lot of spit.

Aaaaand...

Someone sent me a copy of the book club book! :D Thank you, someone! So I can participate and stuff. I am currently on page 32. I really like it so far. When does the group meet again? June 22nd or something? Hope I can make it. xD

Disenchanted, you could say

Blinky st. james — Wed, 03 Jun 2009 08:39:23 GMT

The past few days have been a blur. A tired, unhopeful, disenchanted blur. I think I've been a little crazy* the past few days, now that I think about it.

Part of my problem was that I'd gotten crappy comments on one of my blogs a while ago, and it really got to me. I felt like no matter what I put on there, I was going to be criticized. I know you're not supposed to care what other people think of you (and am a firm believer in If they don't like it, they can...well, I'm sure you know what I'm talking about) but it just really got me. I was really sad about it. And I don't know why, because I want to write fantasy romance for the rest of my life. I expect I'm gonna get a lot of hate mail mixed in with fan mail (...that is, if I get published. Which I'd better, because I have no back up plan.) Maybe that's the whole reason God let me be homeless, so I could taste the taste of hatred and I'd be prepared. At least now I can see it coming...

But anyway, I was really in a funk. I couldn't think straight (okay that was partway the fault of a major lack of sleep as well...) Today I confessed this sort of to my mom, and she told me to just tell it like it is**. I don't think I'm the kind of person who is lucky enough to get full blown epiphanies, or else I'd be a heck of a lot more productive, but I think I get small vague ones. I think I got one today after she said that, and so while we were driving around looking for dinner I felt okay. Like maybe I actually could update that thing.

I don't know what is wrong with me, I know everything is never completely cheery and happy with anyone. No one is liked by everyone. I don't want to be liked by everyone, the past few months have proven to me that I don't like attention (again, how is that going to work if I get published? Hrmm...). So I don't know why, but when people are idoits towards me it hurts. When they suggest doing things I've already said we tried, suggesting that we are not trying hard enough or looking thoroughly enough, it bugs me. I am probably just stupid.

And I don't mean to interrupt this weird little rant I'm having, but I never noticed the library had Dewey posters up before. Hahahahahaha!!! 100 is Philosophy & Psychology. I know that in the early 100's they have Ufo books, and 133 is the occult number (tarot, feng shui, etc). No idea that fit in with 'Philosophy & Psychology.' Haha. :P

OKAY. Back to my confused stupid little self. I don't know what the future is going to bring, although I could try and guess with my tarot cards (why else would I be familiar with that section of the library? ;P). I can ignore people's shitty comments. (Although I doubt that is actually going to happen, me completely igmoring them.) Although that's what a certain word and the back of my mind is for: I can think to myself, you mean people know what you can do with yourselves! Hahahaha! ...yeah, it's still gonna hurt. I will probably get in more depressed funks. But maybe not. I don't know.

Sorry...I don't think I'm making a lot of sense. If you're still reading, thank you.

I am not sure what else to add...but I just seriously needed to rant. I don't know what to do with anger or sadness except keep it inside and write it out privately***, and so...yeah. What was my point? I think it's this: thanks for reading.

*As in certifiable, not reckless.

**Which I only do in my diary because when I'm upset I swear in that thing like a sailor. Can't you tell I tried to sensor this post as much I could?

***Because I don't think anyone would like to listen to me beetch and whine, and plus I SUCK at talking, especially when it comes to ranting. So I just...don't.

GASP

Blinky st. james — Tue, 26 May 2009 09:29:31 GMT

Wow, today after months of having my PNN, it dawned on me how to make the sections different. Just leave the "Apply this theme to all sections" thingy unchecked (Mine was anyway) and go to the other page and click on the page design there and do something else. GASP! I so did not know that.

*happyhappyhappy*

So yeah, go check out my 101 in 1001 page, it is different than my other sections. It is pink and stuff. :D Also let me know if I kinda ruined it by going down to two columns.

I might go back to the way it was after all that, but I am happy to know how to do it anyway.

Birfday Sillybrashuns

Blinky st. james — Thu, 21 May 2009 06:26:38 GMT

Heyyyy! Thanks to everyone who's already sent me some happy birfday messages! I actually got some on facebook, even though I rarely visit my page anymore. Haha... :P

So. Since I can't put little videos in this post, I thought I would put some pictures instead. :P And some links to videos. Or something. Well, let me just get started.

This first picture is of my brithday suit. YES! Hahahahahah Okay but yeah, someone gave me a Target gift card and I really needed some new pants, and I went into Target alone because Mum was in the car with the dogs, and of course I took the liberty to try on a bunch of other things. (In total it was four.) Anyway, I ended up really liking this shirt, and I actually had enough left to get it so I did. YAY! This picture isn't really good, but oh well. I have no idea why I'm leaning like that. Noooo idea.

And the second picture is me...swimming! :D We actually had enough after paying bills and getting the tire to go to Target and look for a swimsuit. I tried on several, and I ended up with a cute blue one piece. I tried on a brown one piece I thought would work, but it didn't. and I tried on a two piece but the whole of my chest would not have fit in that thing.

I haven't actually gone swimming for like six or seven years, so I wasn't really prepared. It felt different than I thought it would. It took me quite a while but I actually figured out how to float and I managed to swim across the pool a few times. Unfortunately by that time I was exhausted...I don't know if I'll ever get a chance to go in a pool again, but I hope I do. Especially this summer. We probably won't be able to afford a motel room again, but if we do...I'm keeping my suit with me this time. I had a pink one, but it got lost in storage because I figured there'd be no way we'd use it...and plus it probably didn't fit. I got it a while ago...

Anyway. Yay! That was fun. xD I'm so glad I got the chance to do that. Swimming is fun.

And now. Some promised vintage Sesame Street. I found it when I was just looking at random things on Youtube, and when I saw it I remembered it even though I haven't seen it in forever. Haha. :P

Haha...I'm not sure what other videos I could share, so...I'll just go on to the next thing and mention my other blogs. I haven't actually mentioned them anywhere yet! But the links to them are on the side of my blog, haha. Anyway, I started another art blog. The first one got really off topic and while I like it, it wouldn't make a good portfolio type of thing. Soooo...Katy Draws Stuff! It's not updated that often but I try to update it sometimes. I haven't really made any art worth posting. :P

The next one is a photo blog, a home for my bad for-fun photography. Ha ha. I kinda like the pictures I post there...

And I have a blah blah blog where I post interesting things off the internet and stuff. I post a lot there...I like that blog. Lol, I like my others too. :P

Soooo. Yup, that's also where I blog...haha. Yeah.

Am I forgetting anything? Is there something I should be mentioning on my birfday po--

OMG Any birfday sillybrashun is not complete without a lolcat! :O

Cake! :D

until then

Blinky st. james — Wed, 20 May 2009 21:40:08 GMT

I'm gonna have to post birfday stuff later in the day. Sorry! A ton of stuff going on this morning - nothing exciting, today is bill-paying day. We have to get a new tire for our car because someone stuck a two inch razor blade in it. But hopefully I can post in the afternoon! :D

oohhh

Blinky st. james — Tue, 19 May 2009 09:39:59 GMT

There was a book club chat and I missed it! I was totally online and then shtuff started happening. How many of you are aware of myself being filmed by MTV? What about the Campbell Reporter article? So yeah, both of those things happened when the chat started. I was being filmed, and then I was being photographed. It was totally weird, too, because the photos were taken in the motel parking lot and all these people were loitering outside...hahaha gives 'em something to talk about. :D Maybe they think I'm famous or something. And it turns out I'm just a homeless chick with a blog.

Well anyway. I didn't actually know there was a book club...sorry. I totally didn't read the book. :( When I got the little subscription article from Sally G. I had no idea it was a book club chat...haha, sorry. But it sounds cool! How does it work? Can I come? It might give me an incentive to finish something. Okay I hope I spelled incentive right.

So that was my evening. It was totally ironic.

It's ON!!

Blinky st. james — Tue, 19 May 2009 07:28:59 GMT

Whoo! We were able to get a hotel room for a few more nights, so we're good until Thursday morning. Yay! That means I'll make it to this little party thing I'm planning. I might post in the morning and then you can say hi if you want to whenever you get the chance? Does that work for you?

It also means I'll probably miss the second Girl's NIght Out. :( Man, when am I gonna get to attend one of those things? Well, I won't hold my breath...you never know...you might see me there...I never know what's going to happen anymore.

And also I wanna take the opportunity to try and embed a video in this post see if what I'm planning will even work here. You will see below either a bunch of mishmash, or a commercial from last year about Eureka. (Which is like the awesomest show ever go watch it now)

Okay...hold your breath...cross your fingers...I'm gonna post...

Update: Okay. Uh, no video then. You okay with links?

Link to Eureka commercial here.

(Yes I could put the videos on the side or start a new page for my birfday stuff...but I think a post is okay...)

mahself has a birfday

Blinky st. james — Fri, 15 May 2009 23:51:27 GMT

You probably know dis, too. (Sorry for teh lolspaek but I wuz just lookin at lolcats.) Well anyway it's liek in 4 days or sumfing. It's on teh 20th. Cher will also be sillybrating, but not with me. She doesn't know we share.

ANYWAY. Mah point: I wanna have mahself an internet party. But where shall mah festivities take place? Here on PNN seems the only liekly place the mah efforts will be appreciated. (ha ha...) I was thinkin I'd just post some birfday pics and vintage Sesame Street videos or something because it's mah birfday and dat's what I wanna do. And if you'll come and say 'hi the vintage sesame street you found is cool' then that would be most awesome. You has proven you can party.

HOWEVA. I dunno where imma be on Wednesday, so here's what I thought stuff might go down:

If I has a hotel room, I'll prolly post stuff in teh morning or throughout the day or whenever I feel liek it

If I has library internets, I'll prolly post in late morning, liek around 10-12.

Since I dunno when dis party's goin down, we can consider it an all day thing and you can comment whenever you has teh time. If you want to say hi anyways. :P

Keep your fingers crossed I have any kind of connection! I wanna do dis even if no one shows up (but it would make me most happiest if you did).

So yeah tell your friends or something and let's braek out teh magic wand and turn me 17! :D

PS Bonus points if you noticed I changed mah PNN-vatar. (Well if you can put 'Tw-' in front of everything on Twitter you can put PNN in front of stuff here right?) I dunno what you'll use these points for. And now I must go, mah puter wants to restart.